We feel so fortunate to be able to get pregnant again, growing up I was very naïve and thought, “you get married, travel, buy a home and have a baby”. Simple as that… right? no. Not so simple.
Trying to another baby was so scary and getting pregnant again was even scarier. No one tells you after your miscarriage that you have every thought you could possibly imagine running through your head. Every single day was, “is today the day I may lose my baby again? What if it happens again? I wish I could just go to the doctor to make sure everything is okay”. I can tell you for 14 weeks straight Keloni and I never missed a prayer that didn’t involve our gratitude for this baby and praying/pleading for the baby’s health. After lots of worry, stress and anxiety (welcome to parenthood right??) I finally realized I needed to Let Go and Let God. I have really stood by this and let the Lord know I am putting my plan in His hands and He knows everything. That has helped ease my worries so much.
My family gets together every other Sunday and does dinner, so I thought this would be great to find out the gender with everyone. My sister in law bought two bombs and then I gave the ultrasound of the sex to my niece. She grabbed the bomb and gave it to us! We didn’t know what color it was because they were ducked taped (hence the failure HAHA). I wouldn’t recommend these type of bombs just because we had so many complications, but I know TNT sells some on amazon!
The second I got pregnant I had a dreams we were having a little girl. I would dream of holding her, dreams of protecting her and even lighting the bomb and it was pink! I even would pray every night in my personal prayers and not mean to, but use she/her pronouns and I told Keloni, “I know I don’t know, but I know we are having a girl”. <— so confusing ahah. It is the oddest thing to carry a baby. Seriously, to think that I am not only taking care of myself, but my child inside of me is like… WOAH. Babies are truly a miracle and such a blessing. We could NOT be more excited and do believe there is a rainbow after every storm.
Here is our video from when we found out we are having a baby girl!! We love you little one.